okay. very dramatic.
sunday. how come i don't feel like its a sunday. where's the sunshine, the breeze, the birds...
i want this to be over badly. wait, i don't even have an exact definition of "this". what's this that is bothering the shit out of me. and sucking my buoyancy. god knows. perhaps its my best friend, thats creating these emotional turmoils. well done girl.
i just want to be... smiling. but apparently it seems every little thing i do has the potential to turn this smile to a frown and eventually... apathy. it's in these kind of don't know what the hell is wrong with me that a simple cheer up can work wonders.
my mind is giving way. my senses have reached a point whereby they don't give a damn anymore.
when did i land myself in such shit. my last week of school, shouldn't i be celebratory and planning the next phase of life. perhaps the stress of planning things is taking a toll, that's why i have been feeling uptight recently. knowing that somehow from now on, i'm on my own is making me anxious and scared. i feel really alone and stranded. it forced me to tears last night, knowing that perhaps, I am alone. look at the people around me. they are busy busy busy. who would have time to bother about one tiny soul like me.
the feeling of being alone is frightening. i sound pathetic.
optimism please return. i will be soulless if such pessimism persists.
