you heard me; you know how badly i want this...
you saw how far i've come, and how further i wish to go...
you know it.
please let me have this...
i knew i screwed up, big time. yes, this time i think i am stupid.
i screwed up my only chance, and now i'm weeping.
i so badly want this, yet i failed to display it out.
i've only got myself to blame, and honestly, i really wish i could kill myself.
i can only pray now, that i can get this.
